It has come to my attention lately that I have many, many ideals about how my life should be lived, how things should be done, how I and others should act, etc. However, my real life does not live up to these ideals.
Far from it, actually...
For example:
Ideal: Thin, fit, emotionally and physically healthy
Real: Overweight/borderline Obese, Chronic Allergies, Mild Depression
Ideal: Working F/T at a staff job with benefits, 1/2 hour or less commute
Real: Contracting at two part time jobs, no benefits, expensive COBRA payments, more than two hours travel per day
Ideal: I don't actually know re: parenting, I am changing my views here. Used to think I would be present all the time when I am home with my daughter, happy to be with her we would always have fun together, etc. But that is a gossamer hollywoood movie vision of parenthood and not close to the reality.
Real: I am so tired by the time I get home I usually end up zoning out in front of Sesame Street or another DVD with my two year old. We do cuddle though.
Ideal: Great, loving, intimate relationship with my employed husband
Real: Strained relationship with unemployed husband (who it should be said is by most accounts a good guy)
Ideal: Winning the lottery and not working for anyone ever again
Real: Needing to work out these authority issues so I can get along with bosses better
Not that I'm a perfectionist or anything.
Is there a way to merge the ideal with the real to find a happy balance? Maybe this blog will help me figure it out.
